I just brought my husband home from 23 days of rehab. I really didn't want to bring him home. He has lied, deceived and munipulated me for months. If it weren't for our 8 year old son, I would kick him out. I have so much anger, fear, resentment in me I feel I am going to explode. I went to one al-anon meeting and there were only 4 people there. I read some of the literature and it says to not yell, nag or harp on them. So in other words I am supposed to pretend this didn't happen in order for him to make a recovery??? They say it isn't my fault this happened, but his family sure thinks so. His sister said to me, "...if she was married to me, she would be on drugs too." How about that. So I sit here hoping he hasn't lost his job and trying to be nice when I actually want to hurt him so bad I can't believe it. He hasn't said much to me except he is sorry. He is sorry, that's all I get. Every time he walks upstairs or goes in the bathroom I think he is taking drugs. He is in outpatient treatment now, and he has to go to aa meetings everyday. But then he comes home and takes a nap. I spent 23 days taking care of the house and our son and going to work and trying to help him and all I want to do right now is scream!!!! Thanks for listening.
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