my boy friend has been using drugs we have a 15 month old daughter ,`he was stealingour money for his addiction andf doing drugs outside our house after him selling off our posessions and not owning up to it, lets just say things got to be a dangerous environment to live in for me and our baby. So i Left with her and told him he wont get to see her till he goes to rehab and gets help and is clean, cuz i dont want to put up with the abuse to her and myself anymore. Now it has been reaching 2 months and he swears he been on the waiting list for rehab i know that it takes a while but could it possibly be this long without any onfo on when its going to happen. I have given him this chance to get help and keep his family, how long can i wait for him to get help? how long can this last chance card be worth before i say i cant take it any longer. Every day we talk and i get yelled at for keeping her away from him and told im a bad mother for doing this but i am quit serious i dont want him to be around her till he has gotten help from profesionals. It is so hard to deal with his betrayal and the pain in my heart it has caused from him using, i feel cheated,alone, angry,stupid,upset about all of our things we worked so hard for are just vanished. I feel like he wants me to just accept it and move on and forgive him. But how can I? He is nasty to me every singel day, makes me feel bad for leaving him. This has upset my whole world before this I had blind faith in him and loved him whole heartidly now im left with a baby and angry man thats so full of hate to me for thinking about her as number one not him, Im just so done with being blamed for him not seieng her. I know it hurts but what he did to us is more than that i dont want her to have a father who is doing drugs or is doing those kinds of dugs. Am i being selfish for keeping him away from her and protecting her? am i as bad as him for it i just feel like im being railroaded im the one that is putting the peices back together, how can i trust him not to do this again??? im sorry for being so scramblled i just had to get thiss off my chst thanxs
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