I have been married for 19 years to a pot smoker and alcohol abuser (ifnot alcoholic). These habits are not done at home in my presence. They are "hidden" from me. My husband comes home "high". He holds down a job but I have basically spent my life waiting for him. Waiting for him to come home after work, waiting for him to care about my feelings, waiting for him to change. Just this morning when I confronted him about how he never comes right home after work and let him know how much this hurts me, he still isn't home and its 7:30 pm. He truly comes home whenever he feels like it and never lets me know when that might be. I can't believe I have stayed with him. I find it impossible to leave. I worry about supporting my kids if I leave. I have a job but I am just going to start going back to college. It never seems like the "right" time to let go. Is there anyone out there who is going through this kind of a marriage?
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