If you read my profile then you know I am married to a heroin addict or at least I was.I spent the last two years dedicating my life to this man. Loveing and supporting and sacrificing everything I ever worked so hard for. He went into a program just about three months ago was in it for 60 days then was in a 3/4 house for one week, and decided he was going to go back home to live with his mom.Mind you I moved closer to him, lost our home and my job so he could say he was going back and left me behind once again.He went into the program because he said he wanted his life back and didnt want to lose me.Told me I was the most important person in his life and no one ever loved him the way I did.He came out of the program and said He didnt want to be in a relationship, maybe we could be friends with benefeits.Friends with benefeits, who says that to their wife?Then it turns into one week he loves me and misses me then the next he wants nothing to do with me.He moved his new best friend that he met in rehab over their with him and now has moved into a new house across from his mother with this guy, another recovering addict he has only known for two months.I just found out after telling me he doesnt want to see or be with anyone else that he has put up a Myspace page to meet girls 10 years younger then him.He is now divorcing me.So I have to ask why? And HOw? can someone please explain this to me. How after all I've done for this man, I saved his life repeatedly, can he come out of a program and be more selfish then when he went in?How can he cause the one person who ever stood by him more pain then is bearable? I thought the programs were to teach honesty and to make ammends not to coninue causing pain to those who have cared for you.He has been Lying just as much if not more.Why didnt I just walk away from him all the times I had the chance,I couldnt he needed me.Now I need him and he has turned his back on me.The hardest thing about it all is he has been so cruel about the whole thing, cold and indifferent like I never mattered to him at all.Why?
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