My husband is a crack addict and has done so many terrible things to myself and our children. I am so tired of being angry, I don't know how to let it go. I left him about 2 months ago, he is now in a re-hab that he put himself in about 2 weeks ago. He has been an addict for 14 years and this is the first time he has ever got help. He says he is there for the right reasons and I want to believe him but I have been hurt and let down by him so many times that it is hard to. We have a 15 month old son and he was high the day he was born, left me in the hospital an hour after I gave birth to go get high. He has stolen everything to support his habit, he has physically abused me, lied to many times to even begin to remember, manipulated and deceived me a million times over, everything an addict does I guess. I love him with all my heart and I want to be with him but I am so scared of him going back to his old ways after he gets out of re-hab and I will never let myself or my kids live the life we were before with him. I just don't know how to get past my hurt and anger. I know he has a sickness and I try to seperate that from "him" in my mind but I just can't. When the drugs are not a part of him he is a wonderful loving husband and father. How do I let things go? How do I make a decision to be with him again? I have never been so lost in all my life.
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