I aways said I would never be with anyone who used a needle, since I was a alcoholic and meth addict, yet stayed away from the needle. but codependant me, I mwas with 3 herion addicts, first one lasted 6 months, put him in jail, for trying to strangle me, second married process of divorce, he is in jail for using, 3rd just kicked out can't stay clean. The sad part is I met them all in a treatment program. for some deep inner side , I felt since our drug was opposit, we could stay clean, me at least, he would know I was high and so on, I guess some sick form of thinking that I could be accountable to not using. I had to accept my addiction first and come into reality. now my life is a mess to some degree. I have lack of trust in the third yet I love him very much. sick sick sick. I need support a friend to talk to, I have no job,no car, single mom, but I do have a nice home. thank god for that. please anyone who understands contact me. so alone, yet confused.
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