I have posted on here before, but its been a long while. My boyfriend (fiance... not sure what to call him at this point) finally went to rehab in October. Two weeks ago he disappeared for two day, then admitted to me that he has been shooting up. I poked myself with a needle in the trash the week before and confronted him about it, but even though he was asleep when i asked him, he already had a legitimate reason ready. I was completely heart broken to find this out. He said he has been doing it since around November. I was and still am so heartbroken. It is one thing to pop pills or snort them... but this? He has been putting me at risk this whole time. Who is he to make that decision. He insists he always buys a fresh pack of needles from walgreens before he does this, but how can I be certain. I know enough to realize that addicts make poor choices on a regular basis. He took two weeks off after he admitted he has been doing this. He spent a couple of days detoxing, and then we took a long vacation. He changed his phone number, changed jobs, and both of us got tested. He hasn't been out of my sight till this Monday when he started the new job. Monday when he came home he was sniffling like he does when he snorts. But I chose to trust him because I was doing the same thing from allergies. Yesterday I was doing laundry, and the shirt he had on the day before had blood spots on the sleeve. I blew it off. Yesterday it took him an hour and a half to get home from work when it normally takes 15 mins and he said he had to get money owed to him from his friend (someone he gets high with). Last night he fell asleep in his comfy chair and when he slid over his sleeve slid up. I never looked at the track marks before, but these looked fresh. Then this afternoon he called me and said he was with another friend (also a dealer) but he swears he isn't going to do anything. I brought up what i've seen the last two days and said i was trying to trust him, but now I have to ask. He went off on me and said I always think he's doing something wrong so he might as well do it. (same thing he said last time I caught him) Then he went on to say that i'm the one being sneaky checking up on him. I love this man, but I am at my wits end. I don't know how to help him. We have been together almost 4 years and he calls me his wife and has proposed, but I don't think I have any legal standing to put him in inpatient care. He rarely speaks to his family and all his friends except one are junkies. I am carrying this burden alone.
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