My friend's 19yr old son died of an overdose on Friday morning. They found him slumped over on the floor with the needle still in his arm. This after he just completed 40 days in detox! He only just got home. Here's my dilemma: I'm more angry at the mom than anything else. She and her husband have always smoked pot and used cocaine and then suddenly it's a surprise when both her sons start using drugs!?!? Her husband died of a heart attack 6 yrs ago. I know the pain of losing a child and the whole community knows this. I'm always supposed to be the kind, sympathetic one that everyone wants to talk to in times like this. I haven't gone to pay my respects and I'm expected at the visitation tonight. I don't know what to do, in my eyes they led by example and this is the consequence. Everybody else is mad at the "friend" who supplied the heroin. What the F%?!#@ ... seriously... doesn't anybody have a brain? It doesn't matter who supplied it, he would've gotten it some way or another. I can only post this on here since everyone else will think I'm some cold hearted bitch for even thinking this. I really just want to slap her instead of saying "oh you poor thing, I'm so sorry for you". I wonder if I should even go tonight and let everyone else think what they want. I feel like a monster.
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