Hi, I'm new here. My mom and dad were addicts. Well my mom probably still is. My dad went to prison for a long time when I was 7. My mom got worse, doing drugs and having relationships with a guys who did them too. I was around it alot. I started smoking pot at a young age and drinking too. Pot is my vice now. I don't want to end up like my mom doing harder drugs and all. It was hell living with her. She turned crazier and more paranoid. Her boyfriends came on to me alot. My brother did drugs and eventually killed himself with overdose at age 16. I've been on my own and have been around alot of drugs and addicts. I try to stay as clean as I can when it comes to alot of things but do still smoke pot. Not sure how to deal without it. It was very hard to see my mom so messed up all the time. She wasn't really there for me at all. I was always cleaning up after her and watching how drugs and drinking can turn people abusive. her relationshipw were all abusive and destructive. Constant tension and craziness around the house. Never liked to be there.. What's a stable homelife. I don't know. I wouldn't feel normal if I actually had some peace and stability. I tend to attract the same kind of stuff into my life wherever I go now.