i made a post earlier about not thinking my husband loves me anymore due to drugs and i just found out why he has been acting that way. his brother just told me that he was told my hubby is using herion along with pills. my whole world just came crashing down! 2 months ago when he was heavy on crack and pills he prob weightd 120 pounds and i would literally sit up every night and cry afraid that he was going to overdose. i was waiting for that phone call. he finally got arrested and got clean in jail. when he got out of jail and was clean he called me all the time saying how sorry he was and how much he wanted to be with me and loved me. about a week ago he started acting distant and very secretive, not calling me ect... i knew something was up i just didnt know what. his brother just told me he heard from a very reliable source that he is using herion. now im back to being terrified that he is going to overdose. im am done trying to make things work. this was the wake up call that i needed to be able to walk away from him, but i cant get rid of the fear. he has a warrant but there is no reason to turn him in since they wont break down the house door to get him. (i already asked the police) basically he has to get pulled over or something like that. i am so devastaed. he was clean and chose to go back on drugs. i feel like he just spit in my face. the whole drug addict cop out only goes so far with me. how do i move on with my life if i am in a constant fear of him overdosing?? i am still so in love with him. the ONLY way he will get clean is one of two ways. 1)prison 2)overdose. just like now, im sitting here crying scared for his safety and wondering why he didnt love me enought to stay clean. i feel empty inside, i cant start over with my life when im afraid his is gonna end! HELP!!!!!
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