Just wondering..Now that my spouce is sober for the past four months and seems to be taking it seriously, Im not quit sure how to cope... I know i need alanon but, its just finding the time... I have mixed thoughts and rollercoaster of emotions, im ok i guess right now, but wondering, does this go away?? How do you work on trust? I dont like the rollercoaster stuff, its so draining.. I want it to work but i need to shake this in order for it to work, I dont think i can be with him if i cant because i would be fooling myself. I get massive anxiety... Not knowing weither to believe him or not and its so frusterating.... I dont want to fall on my face again.. As much as i love him, i still cant trust him.. We have counselling on saturday, FINALLY!!! Im hoping this will help but what happens if i let my guard down.... I feel like all this weight is on my shoulders to make a decision on how to trust him which i know im being to hard on myself but thats where our fighting start from now, LACK OF TRUST.... Im confused...... and im scared.... dont want the weight.. How do i just push it out of my head and just go day to day?? Does anybody else feel this way??
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