I have been with my husband for 20 years now. His alcohol and pot use are destroying me. I cant even leave the house without worrying something is going to happen. I cant have company over in fear of him acting like a fool. When I leave town, I stress the whole time that he might leave the stove on, or leave a candle burning and burn our house down. He doesnt think he has a problem. Tonight I left for a little while and he let gallons and gallons of water overflow from his 75 gallon fish tank he was filling. I have worked my ass off for my house and he is destroying it. I hate who he is when he is drunk and stoned. He acts stupid and says messed up things to me. In the morning he either doesnt remember or acts like nothing is wrong. I dont understand it. I used to drink heavily to be able to tolerate him. But one day my eyes were opened and I saw what it does and how stupid it makes people act and look and I was done. I dont discuss him with friends or family because it is embarasing. I just found this web page a few days ago and joined. Im so tired of crying over this crap. Is anybody else dealing with this? If so how what are you doing to prevent from breaking down or losing it?
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