After another long night at work and the day i had today, i have decided to set my fiance loose from my life and go tomorrow to get a restraining order. As long as he is doing heroin i dont want him near me or the children. I am torn and have said some nasty things tonight after i found out he took off again and the nasty way he talked to me after all i did for him today (driving him 25 miles to get his fingerprinting done) and just trying to be there to help him through but yet he is out getting high as we speak. I am falling out of love with him more and more everyday just because i am so exhausted by what he does. I do feel bad to an extent because unless i revoke it, he will not be allowed at the hospital when i give birth to our son but i need to prove my point and show him i will not let him and his drug use push me around anymore. Everyone at work said to just do it make him see his errors and where he messed up and then others say i cant do that to him. I guess i just need a little guidance.
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