My husband is an alcholic and my life revolves around keeping him safe. I am so tired, frustrated and pissed off that I can't even think straight anymore. My husband has been and alcholic for 2 years now and it is getting worse by the day. I told myself over and over when the bad days out weighed the good days I would leave and here I sit in my room. While he is passed out on the livingroom floor wondering what I am doing. I want something to change I have tried everything I can think of to get him to stop. I have yelled,cried,begged,bargained,ignored. And always it is my fault, I ask him why are you drinking and he responds everytime you mention something about my drinking or anyone says anything about my drinking just makes me drink more why is everyone trying to take my fun away? I am terrified to leave him I am scared of what he will do to him self I love him so much on the days that he doesn't drink we have a wonderful time we talk and joke and I see glimpses of his old self and then on the days that he drink I HATE HIM, I can't stand him I wish he would go AWAY. I hate waking up in puddles of puke or piss, to him sweating so bad that the bed is wet. What am I going to do?
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