So I was on here a while ago dealing with an addict boyfriend. I made the decision to cut ties and to move on and haven't been back to this site since. The only problem is that he came back into my life. I don't know how it happened. All of a sudden I went from seeing his addictive behavior and issues that he needed to deal with and getting out of the relationship, to visiting him and feeling that love again, etc. Well, now out of the blue he is ending it with me! After we had another trip planned, etc. and I have no idea if he is using or not - certainly doesn't seem so but I know he's gotten no outside help, but I am just seeing that an addict by nature is selfish. And they want what they want until they don't and then they detach, very matter of factly. In this case I am again the one picking up the pieces and I look back and think - how the hell did that happen? How did I get so swept up with him again and believe the words coming out of his mouth about loving me and wanting to make it work when he has already proven he is a liar and manipulator?? Again, I have no idea if drugs are at play, but he also could have cheated on me (there are some signs). My point is that there is something wrong in the minds of addicts. And it would seem that whether or not they are using, they are emotionally unavailable and incapable of depth of feeling or respect of another's feelings. Do you agree or disagree? I am curious, because I feel blindsided. I again, am letting it go, this time for good, and reading the emails I sent to him when he was in the throes of addiction made me feel better and made me realize that I am not dealing with someone with a normal mind....Being on here helped me before so thought I would reach out so that I can finally close the door. Again, I don't think he is using, but his drug of choice was oxycotin and he has not been in counseling or anything... just not sure it is possible to kick it without professional help??
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