I am 22 yrs old and for beyond in maturity for my age. I am a mother of 3, Anthony who is 6, Jenna who is 3, and Emiy who is 28months. My mother who is 42 is a sever acoholic and has been for the past 10yrs. She was addicted to crack-cocaine and lost me and my brother to my father in 99 and has since overcome that addiction and in 04 she had or so we thought overcome her addiction to acohol, but she relapsed and since then has become very dependent on it! She doesnt drink beer, she can honeslty go through 2 5ths of Vodka a day!!!!!!!! I get phone call at 3-4am from her crying about how much pain she is in. She was digonised 3yrs ago with cirrhosis of the liver and has continued to drink exsesivly with no end in sight. Recently I have stoped her from seeing her grandchildren in hopes that maybe they will be the one thing that makes her open her eyes and see what she is doing to herself and the people around her. None of her famiy talks to her anymore. I dont know what else I can do!! I really need to talk to someone who has been in my shoes. She has started to try and cause complications between me and my husband. He doesnt understand why I just dont wash my hands of her. But that is easier said then done with my mother! I love her more then I can say with words but at the same time she is effecting my health and my family! I get phisically sick after talking to her I get sever anixety attacks, panic attacks. Everytime my phone rings I get a qwesey feeling in my stomache just waiting for the one phone call from her boyfriend to tell me somethings wrong. I honestly can not live like this anymore. My brother who is 21 is serving in Iraq with the US Army so I dont want to worry him but he knows what is going on and he has tried to help as much as possiable but he is also out of the country so everything is weighing on me. Please any advice would be greatly appriciated!!!!!!!!!
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