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what he's doing now

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I know you can never really know why anyone would do this to themselves....but I HAVE to TRY....
he laid out a picture of our child and me, and then killed himself....we hadnt spoken in years, and his drug addiction kept him from seeing our child....
so why OUR pictures? was that his way of trying to tell me it was MY fault?? because that's what it feels like!
I find myself thinking of him daily...(this happened a several years back) and I know that the events going on in my life right now have made me think about the great guy I fell in love with...
I seem to do that ---romanticize him just because he's gone....truth is, he had ISSUES, not just the drugs but anxiety and insecurity, and jealosy.....
why would he do this?? I had hoped one day he would get his act together, and even if he didnt completely--then our child could go and find him when he became an adult....at least get to know who his father is!
so now I just try to tell my child the good things about him....I downplay his weaknesses and talk about the things that I loved about him. I dont know if this is the right thing to do or not...I surely dont want to glorify what he has done in any way....but I dont want to talk bad about him either.
there are days when I miss him.
there are days when I hate him.
there are days when I want nothing more than to lay next to him and feel safe (he had a way of doing that)
he was my first love....and I miss him
I feel bad for dumping all this on you guys, but thank you for reading
he laid out a picture of our child and me, and then killed himself....we hadnt spoken in years, and his drug addiction kept him from seeing our child....
so why OUR pictures? was that his way of trying to tell me it was MY fault?? because that's what it feels like!
I find myself thinking of him daily...(this happened a several years back) and I know that the events going on in my life right now have made me think about the great guy I fell in love with...
I seem to do that ---romanticize him just because he's gone....truth is, he had ISSUES, not just the drugs but anxiety and insecurity, and jealosy.....
why would he do this?? I had hoped one day he would get his act together, and even if he didnt completely--then our child could go and find him when he became an adult....at least get to know who his father is!
so now I just try to tell my child the good things about him....I downplay his weaknesses and talk about the things that I loved about him. I dont know if this is the right thing to do or not...I surely dont want to glorify what he has done in any way....but I dont want to talk bad about him either.
there are days when I miss him.
there are days when I hate him.
there are days when I want nothing more than to lay next to him and feel safe (he had a way of doing that)
he was my first love....and I miss him
I feel bad for dumping all this on you guys, but thank you for reading
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