Hopefully posting this may just make someone who is considering suicide to change their mind. Until Christmas 2007, I was often harrassed by the media to "Sell my story". I have never done so and would never consider doing so. I tell people what happened and I receive a form of release just for a short time of the anguish I go through day after day. Money has never been an option for giving my story, because it is just that, finally tipped my husband over the edge. I believe in my heart that my husband killed himself because he thought all the debts he left behind would "die" with him. Please, please believe me.....this is NOT the case. If a person has any assets what so ever, they can be taken away to pay the debt regardless. Our home was only in my husbands name and the most sad and sickening thing of all is that it is worth more than the debt he had. But I know my husband would not have wanted us to loose everything we worked for and the childrens home. Needless to say......that happened anyway. Life is not the same, the home, is not the same, the children are not the same, and as for me....well....I'm hanging on by the skin of my teeth.
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