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this is torturing me

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I used to work with a guy my age, he was the life and soul of everything. He used to jump around like a hyperactive monkey whilst working even on a 13 hour shift and hed always be smiling and hugging everyone. I was quite good friends with him.
In January we fell out, the argument ended with me saying I thought u were a decent bloke, I must have been wrong. I never got to speak to him again, as I got a text saying he had committed suicide in February. Apparently he left a note but I have no idea what it said and I have no idea what the result of his inquest was.
I miss him everyday and wish I knew why he did this so out of the blue with no warning, I sometimes blame myself as my friend told me that he had told her he had feelings for me and he knew I had them for him but I was with someone else and that he had debts and also his housemate, who used to speak to me now wont even acknowledge me if he sees me in the street.
Am I to blame?
In January we fell out, the argument ended with me saying I thought u were a decent bloke, I must have been wrong. I never got to speak to him again, as I got a text saying he had committed suicide in February. Apparently he left a note but I have no idea what it said and I have no idea what the result of his inquest was.
I miss him everyday and wish I knew why he did this so out of the blue with no warning, I sometimes blame myself as my friend told me that he had told her he had feelings for me and he knew I had them for him but I was with someone else and that he had debts and also his housemate, who used to speak to me now wont even acknowledge me if he sees me in the street.
Am I to blame?
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We take on the guilt because we are trying to figure out a reason for something that is beyond us. We can't ask them why they did it. We mourn, we cry, we lament.
The one thing I do accept is this: The brain is an organ. It can malfunction just like every other organ in our body. Emotions are a brain function. I firmly believe that the only reason a person would do such a thing is because of a chemical imbalance in the brain. We cannot control that! Hugs to you today.
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