I lost my brother to a murder suicide 16 years ago. He killed 2 others, then himself. Then I lost my father 5 months later due to a heart attack. I believe the stress over loosing his son caused my fathers death. I have my good days and bad days over it, but I feel stuck that I will not ever be free from all of the pain this has caused me. I really struggle with this! I think if it would've been only my brother that took his own life that I could accept that fact and move on, it would be hard, but he took three lives with him and I have a hard time forgiving him for that! I have no immediate family left for support with this. I feel soo...sorry and quilty and ashamed for the family's that lost their loved ones to the hands of my brother! He's really left me with alot of pain and torment!
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