How Dare I Smile? Brigid Klein How dare I laugh?How can I sometimes be OK,when you took your life,it cuts like a knife,into my heart each day. How can I look at the sun set?How can I worry what to wear?Why put on my makeup?when you're no longer here? It feels so wrong that I'm alive.I never thought that I'd survive.It's the guilt, that takes me over,You should be here, not I. Is it ok my Christine,to feel some life again?It's been so long that I'vecried these tears,so long that I carry this pain. It does not mean I've forgotten you.Oh no, never, as long as I live.You will always be that part of me,that I carry right here in my soul. I've struggled so since you left me,to find a reason to go on.Is it ok if I smile now and then?to help with the sadness and pain? I love you Christine, more thanyou'll ever know.Your absence is with me each day.I wait for the time that I'll see you again.It's then that I'll truly be OK. ````````````````````````````````````````````````Don't tell me that you understand,Don't tell me that you know.Don't tell me that I will survive,How I will surely grow. Don't tell me this is just a test,That I am truly blessed.That I am chosen for the task,Apart from all the rest. Don't come at me with answersThat can only come from me,Don't tell me how my grief will pass,That I will soon be free. Don't stand in pious judgmentOf the bonds I must untie,Don't tell me how to grieve,Don't tell me when to cry. My life is filled with selfishness,My pain is all I see,But I need you and your love...Unconditionally. Accept me in my ups and downs,I need someone to share,Just hold my hand and let me cry,And say, "My friend, I care."
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