I've read in a number of places that with suicide, the survivors go through the first year or so with a fog - shock. And that often the second year is the time when the immense pain/anguish is experienced. Does anyone feel this statement is true? I know that I am surviving my son's death by suicide right now because of the shock. I am numb and I go through normal activities without realizing that I am doing them. It has only been 2 months, 3 weeks. I only break down once in awhile but then I push it away. I'm trying to be strong for the remaining family members. I love them so much and it is a blessing to have each and everyone in my life. I love hearing people tell me something about my son - the memories are precious. Those who love me and my family are not afraid to contact me to see how I am. Those who I barely know are avoiding me right now - I don't blame them - they realize something like this could happen to them also. Somehow like it might be contagious. But that doesn't bother me - I only have time for those who are so precious to me. I think of my son at least every minute of each day and then some. I think of how much I loved him, how great a son, father and husband he was. How proud of him I am. His death by suicide will not define him - I will not let it. always, Shirley
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