Hi everyone, I'm Johnny. My father commited suicide on september 23 and was discovered dead on the 29 of september. The hardest thing for me is to think "Wow, what kind of dark, scary, confused place he must have been in." And I know there was nothing I could have done to stop him. I'm 15. I'm his son. About a year ago my father was served with a restraining order for pushing my mother over. My father was also and alcoholic. And things really went down hill from there really. I' visit him on the weekends and stuff like that. And what really makes me both happy and sad is my mom let him hang out with me at my house for my starting of my freshmen year of high school. And I really think he thought this was the last time he'd ever see me. Wow. And to think of my father laying on the ground, lifeless for a week just freaks me out to no end. And I want him back SO BADLY! If only for fifteen minutes. Just to see his face one more time!
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