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I am still having a difficult time with loosing my sister. Sunday will be a month. I don't know why I expect so much of myself. I noticed I have gone into busy mode lately to be able to function for my kids but my grief is coming out in different ways. I recently began having strange and sometimes scary dreams with my sister. I can't sleep and then drag myself all day.
I am having a hard time either way I handle things. If i really face what happened I am a mess and can't function. When I try hard to focus on the kids' stuff and work I make many mistakes and feel like I am loosing her even more than what I already have. I feel stuck.
I'm also nervous about the dreams and what they mean. People say she could have a message or our relationship was still left unsettled. I am not superstitious and am not into these sort of things but this is the first loss I ever experienced and don't know what to expect.
I am having a hard time either way I handle things. If i really face what happened I am a mess and can't function. When I try hard to focus on the kids' stuff and work I make many mistakes and feel like I am loosing her even more than what I already have. I feel stuck.
I'm also nervous about the dreams and what they mean. People say she could have a message or our relationship was still left unsettled. I am not superstitious and am not into these sort of things but this is the first loss I ever experienced and don't know what to expect.
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I gave my 2 week notice last Friday 13th. Now to join you fine people in a life of leisure and nothing else to do but to look out for myself....is it just me or does that sound pretty boring? My goal was to live to retire and I guess having to take early retirement because of health reasons wasn't exactly the way I had planned things. I just can't stay in that building that is reeking mildew...
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
If it helps any, you are not alone! It's just that your loss is so recent, that you feel as if you are going crazy. You're not!
Supportive hugs being sent your way!
I keep thinking of all the disagreements we had in the past and even though I apologized for my disagreeing with her she didn't know how to take it in. She didn't let herself feel to avoid her childhood pain so she was disconnected from her feelings. I feel so depressed over this. I know it was her way of coping and making it through life but we were not able to really connect.
Thanks for listening.
As for all of the disagreements.....she may or may not have understood, while she was here. When she arrived in Heaven and all of her earthly burdens where removed, she understood. She saw for herself all that you did to help her.
We will all have to review the books of our lives! Continue to be gentle with yourself and your feelings. You will make it through this, as difficult as that seems. And remember, you are not alone on this painful journey. We're all here to help one another!
God Bless!
I am so sorry for your loss! All I can suggest is that you be patient with yourself. The kind of loss you are experiencing is huge, and it's only natural to struggle with it.
Hugs,
Sabrina