My grandmother committed suicide by hanging/strangling herself when my dad was about 5. She had my aunt with her who was only a few months old at the time. I really don't know many details and I guess I don't want to but it was never talked about. I knew that she died long before I was born and only in the past 8 years or so learned that it was suicide. I am upset I never got to know my grandma but I can deal with that. I am very angry and upset about the fact that my family never talked about it-not even so much that they didn't talk about her death but her in general. Complete messed up situation on my dad's side of the family (I know her death was a big part) but I am having a hard time. The best I can piece things together is she was married to an alcoholic (who quit drinking when she died), had four kids at home (twins who were about 5, a 3 year old and a baby), and was in a family of inlaws who were beyond over bearing and she had undiagnosed post partum depression. I can't know anything for sure but I am having a hard time. I guess I am just looking for some validation that suicide affects families more than most people realize--even if you never had the chance to be close to the one who died.
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