Just slow down... take some "you" time and remind yourself who you are and that you have put a lot of time and effort into who you are, and you like you. Don't be afraid to feel bad. But count your reasons to feel good in your day too.

I know how it feels to lose a brother through suicide. I can't be much comfort though as I don't think I'll ever stop hurting about it. Things happen that we have no control over I guess and you can only keep on breathing and living as best you can. I'm sorry. hugs

I am very sorry for your loss. my younger brother committed suicide and died on July 24 2006. You need to slow down and take care of yourself right now. Crying helps, talking helps, typing helps, being on these help sites saved my life a year ago, keep typing we are here to listen. take care
Kelly

I am so very sorry for your devastating loss. I lost my youngest son to suicide almost 1 1/2 years ago. I am just starting to live again.

I sunk myself into my relationship with God. I just couldn't stand on my own. I also went to the doctor and got started on sleeping pills and anti depressants. Along with that I started grief counseling.

You have to make up your mind that you will not let this ruin your life and then work hard to make sure that doesn't happen by taking care of yourself.

Hang in there!

I'm feeling the same way as you are. My father committed suicide almost 2 months ago. And I don't think it will ever stop hurting. I think of it this way. Losing someone to suicide takes a chunk out of your heart. And for a long time, the wound is raw, bleeding and is very painful. But eventually, and I mean eventually is always different for everyone. The wound will become a scar. It will always be there. You'll always know its there but it won't hurt with the intensity that it does now.

I am very sorry for your recent loss of your dear brother. I lost my only brother to suicide, and I can tell you that you are still in shock at this point. The fact that you found this site so soon is a good thing for you. You will find much support and many caring people here. I am here for you, and my heart truly does go out to you.
~~~~HUGS~~~~

God bless you Kimmy. How are you doing? I, too, just found this site and already have found it helpful. It is nice to find people who have been through what you are going through. Take care and God bless. *Hugs*

(((((((Kimmy))))))))

Yes, it hurts, and it hurts deeply...so very different from other deaths...
Even so, you need to take good care of yourself, or at least have that goal in mind.
It's a bit easier to go through the grieving and the hurting and the aching when you are getting good rest, good nutrition, and finding healthy ways to keep on living.

Probably most of us re-evaluate our own lives when we lose someone to suicide. Embrace what you still have, embrace what goals you set out for yourself, and you will gradually and eventually find ways to cope through this.