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I found a picture today..

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Hey everyone. I know I don't post in here very often, but. I'm really in need of talking to someone, anyone right now.
Early today, I was looking through a box of pictures my mom gave me, a while back. I never really had time to go through them. Maybe three months after my friend, killed himself. My parents and I got into this huge fight, which ended up having them strip my room of everything and anything on the walls, dressers, ect. As a punishment and throwing it out. A little extreme maybe, but that's how they were sometimes. Well, I had all my pictures of Ryan up on the wall, next to my door, say good morning, good night. I don't know if that's weird, but it's what I did. I came home and they were all gone. My parents had thrown them out...

I was really upset, don't get me wrong, I was looking through this box of pictures and I actually found one of him. He's a lot younger in it, but it's something and it's been so long since I'd seen his face and his smile and.. I'm just really hurting. I've been listening to this song, my friend sent to me. Just cause she liked it and it ended up making me think of him, because it speaks everything I feel.. It reminds me of him..

So, I'm hurting and I feel like crying, but I'm one of those types, that hates to cry, hates to talk about anything because it hurts... But... Seeing his face today, hearing the song today, remembering him today, has really set me in a mood... I feel so empty... I feel I need to talk to someone... I don't know.. I'm just...

I just don't feel very well..
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I am so very sorry for your loss and your pain. There is always something that triggers memories, good and bad, songs have a real good way of doing that. I could not even listen to the radio after my mom and sister passed. Let yourself cry, get it out, you will feel better, it is cleansing. May peace find you and help you through this rough time...
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It's ok to cry. I can't remember a day I haven't cried since my boyfriends suicide. Allow yourself to experience the emotions of missing your friend. For me every little thing reminds me of Ken. What I realize is that hurting is part of healing. It is ok to feel the way you do and always know you are not alone.
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Thanks guys.. I know I'm not alone but sometimes I feel like I am, because he's gone. I'd known him since we were young, childhood...

I just have so much regret in the events that went or I should have handled better... And that hurts.. Because I miss him so much.. I know it's okay to cry, but I just can't... I don't know why...I can feel the fact that I need to.. but it's just like, it's just so hard...

I'm sorry for you guys' losses.. I understand the fact of having things remind you of them. It seems to come at random sometimes for me.. I can be having the best day of my life and then something will come up and bam. There he is, in my head..

Hugs to you both.
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I have a picture in my profile of my brother when he was happy. Seeing that picture reminds me that he had a beautiful soul, and I know that no matter what, he'll always have that. Keep your picture of your friend as a reminder that he, too, was more than what happened to him, and to you. Sometimes I think when things are going too good for me, when I'm too happy, something inside me reminds me that I should be sad. I try to break that cycle, but it doesn't always work, you know? As for songs, my brother was all about music. Sometimes I hear a song that was his, and it's like a hello or something. Somedays it makes me sad, somedays not. But I always say "Hello Joe" when I hear one. So say your salutations to your friend if you want to, what's it hurt? As for crying, is it a guy thing? I can cry at a good commercial. My husband didn't cry, and my brother was his best friend. But I know he's sad for him. You'll cry if you really need to. I'm so sorry you lost your friend, I know that kind of empty. Just hang on, you're never alone.
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I am so sorry for your loss, I too found that pictures make me sad and I could not listen to the radio for mos after my brother hanged himself 1 and1/2 yrs ago, 2 mos after him my exhusband died, slowly drank himself to death, every song reminded me of them, it still hurts to listen and look at pictures but it does get easier. Time makes it easier to live with after awhile. take care, Kelly
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