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I found a picture today..

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Hey everyone. I know I don't post in here very often, but. I'm really in need of talking to someone, anyone right now.
Early today, I was looking through a box of pictures my mom gave me, a while back. I never really had time to go through them. Maybe three months after my friend, killed himself. My parents and I got into this huge fight, which ended up having them strip my room of everything and anything on the walls, dressers, ect. As a punishment and throwing it out. A little extreme maybe, but that's how they were sometimes. Well, I had all my pictures of Ryan up on the wall, next to my door, say good morning, good night. I don't know if that's weird, but it's what I did. I came home and they were all gone. My parents had thrown them out...
I was really upset, don't get me wrong, I was looking through this box of pictures and I actually found one of him. He's a lot younger in it, but it's something and it's been so long since I'd seen his face and his smile and.. I'm just really hurting. I've been listening to this song, my friend sent to me. Just cause she liked it and it ended up making me think of him, because it speaks everything I feel.. It reminds me of him..
So, I'm hurting and I feel like crying, but I'm one of those types, that hates to cry, hates to talk about anything because it hurts... But... Seeing his face today, hearing the song today, remembering him today, has really set me in a mood... I feel so empty... I feel I need to talk to someone... I don't know.. I'm just...
I just don't feel very well..
Early today, I was looking through a box of pictures my mom gave me, a while back. I never really had time to go through them. Maybe three months after my friend, killed himself. My parents and I got into this huge fight, which ended up having them strip my room of everything and anything on the walls, dressers, ect. As a punishment and throwing it out. A little extreme maybe, but that's how they were sometimes. Well, I had all my pictures of Ryan up on the wall, next to my door, say good morning, good night. I don't know if that's weird, but it's what I did. I came home and they were all gone. My parents had thrown them out...
I was really upset, don't get me wrong, I was looking through this box of pictures and I actually found one of him. He's a lot younger in it, but it's something and it's been so long since I'd seen his face and his smile and.. I'm just really hurting. I've been listening to this song, my friend sent to me. Just cause she liked it and it ended up making me think of him, because it speaks everything I feel.. It reminds me of him..
So, I'm hurting and I feel like crying, but I'm one of those types, that hates to cry, hates to talk about anything because it hurts... But... Seeing his face today, hearing the song today, remembering him today, has really set me in a mood... I feel so empty... I feel I need to talk to someone... I don't know.. I'm just...
I just don't feel very well..
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