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Can't stop thinking about her last moments. :(

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My Mom's suicide was almost four years ago and I still get sad thinking about her last moments after she took all her meds and she knew her death was imminent. *cry*

I remember when my Aunt and I were at the funeral home making the funeral plans and my Aunt had her glasses and she said, "oh look she was crying you can see it on her glasses".

That haunts me to this day. I know she didn't change her mind because she could have easily had picked up the phone and called me or 911 for that matter. But just to know that she was sitting there crying just BREAKS MY HEART. I don't know if I will ever get over knowing that. :(

Do you all have constant thoughts about your loved ones last moments and what was going through their minds? Please share if you don't mind.
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Absoulutely I do. It's still fresh for me (six months ago), and the are things that haunt me. I can see where this time of year triggers a lot for us, what with all of the family gatherings and memories of our moms (in your and my case) during the holidays.
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Every single day - and just thinking about it makes me cry.
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yes I do! The police informed me of everything they pieced together. And they're horrifying details... trust me you don't wanna know.
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Constantly. I always wonder back and wonder what I could have done different to stop my sister from doing it. I wonder why she did it and if it was somehow because of me. I have constant flashbacks of those last moments, they just won't go out of my head.
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Yes, I do have moments, it comes and goes. My brother was 40 yrs old but he seemed like a little boy and I can still see his face when my dad and I dropped him off. I want to go to the park where he did it, my dad says he'll show me but it is too hard on him I will have one of my friends do it someday. I want to believe he was really out of it and just couldn't take it anymore, he was homeless, I truly believe he didn't mean to hurt my dad and I. It gets easier with me in time. I don't even think about my grandmas anymore, but that took a good many years.
Take care, Kelly
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I absolutely do have constant thoughts of that. It just tears my heart more apart than it alread is. I try to push it out of mind and most of the time I can...now. For the first year, that was difficult to do. It is 17 months now since I lost the love of my life and it does not consume my every waking thought. Not having him here still does, just not those final moments.
Peace,
~Steph
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Mine just happened 31 days ago my ex shot himself it kills me wondering what was hurting him so bad.and even now when i think of him i see him with no face.
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