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I really need to talk about this... but the information might be too much for some of you... so please STOP here if you can't deal with it.
My parent killed themselves a year and a half ago. They were both ill physically, my father was more mentally unstable than my mom... but she always said she'd prefer to go out her way. My father tried to die a year before... no one told me... I only knew he had a seizure.. I didn't know it was because he tried to die. My mom fought to keep him alive. All they had to rely on was each other... they were getting sicker... my mom was going blind, and would have been in a wheelchair within a month... my dad needed an operation to keep his circulation in his leg... it might not happen in time to keep his leg. The reasons where plenty... but none of that mattered to me... They asked a neighbor to feed their pets for a few days and said they were coming to visit me and my sister so they would be out of town... then they got a rifle they had been saving. They drove to the next town and mailed a postcard to the neighbor watching the pets. It said "I'm sure by now you know, find homes for my cats" They walked to a secluded park. They were both disabled and there is proof that they helped each other when they stumbled carrying the gun the whole way. In order to use the gun... someone had to put the gun in their mouth and pull the trigger with their foot.. I guess pulling a gun out of your dead mates mouth was too graphic.... so my DAD got on his knees and my mom shot him in the temple (I know he had to go first, cause he couldn't have seen her die) then she put it in her mouth and shot herself. To this day the image of their brains all over the beautiful country side is burned into my brain... I never saw it... I DID NOT go to the site... although my sister went with the police later.... We were told we should NOT see the bodies....I will never forget the police officer telling me the details. I can deal with the fact that they died... but I just wish they could have done it another way.... I can't even think of their faces they way they were... I only see dismembered bodies with no heads.... I want it to go away... now I dream that my pets have their limbs torn off and horrible images are alway in my head.... GOD I just want it to go away so I can remember them the way they were.
My parent killed themselves a year and a half ago. They were both ill physically, my father was more mentally unstable than my mom... but she always said she'd prefer to go out her way. My father tried to die a year before... no one told me... I only knew he had a seizure.. I didn't know it was because he tried to die. My mom fought to keep him alive. All they had to rely on was each other... they were getting sicker... my mom was going blind, and would have been in a wheelchair within a month... my dad needed an operation to keep his circulation in his leg... it might not happen in time to keep his leg. The reasons where plenty... but none of that mattered to me... They asked a neighbor to feed their pets for a few days and said they were coming to visit me and my sister so they would be out of town... then they got a rifle they had been saving. They drove to the next town and mailed a postcard to the neighbor watching the pets. It said "I'm sure by now you know, find homes for my cats" They walked to a secluded park. They were both disabled and there is proof that they helped each other when they stumbled carrying the gun the whole way. In order to use the gun... someone had to put the gun in their mouth and pull the trigger with their foot.. I guess pulling a gun out of your dead mates mouth was too graphic.... so my DAD got on his knees and my mom shot him in the temple (I know he had to go first, cause he couldn't have seen her die) then she put it in her mouth and shot herself. To this day the image of their brains all over the beautiful country side is burned into my brain... I never saw it... I DID NOT go to the site... although my sister went with the police later.... We were told we should NOT see the bodies....I will never forget the police officer telling me the details. I can deal with the fact that they died... but I just wish they could have done it another way.... I can't even think of their faces they way they were... I only see dismembered bodies with no heads.... I want it to go away... now I dream that my pets have their limbs torn off and horrible images are alway in my head.... GOD I just want it to go away so I can remember them the way they were.
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