I didn't dream about my brother (or anything) at all until October 22nd. 3 months to the day that I got the call about his suicide (I didn't even realize the date until someone pointed it out to me). The thing is, it wasn't a good "I love you and will see you in the after life" type of dream. I was like the ghost of christmas past where I witnessed everything that happened that day and was powerless to stop it. I woke up sick, distraught, sad, guilty, etc... I wanted to scream, claw, scratch, wretch, yell, moan, wail! The next night was just as bad. If he was going to come to me in my dreams, I wish it would be of comfort instead of making me feel how sad and lonely and mad he was. His suicide seemed strictly impulsive based on the triggering events of one night, he hadn't been chronically depressed or upset before this. Does anyone else have these dreams?
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