I was on DS for a much different reason than this. I just joined this group recently and was just reading and checking out the posts before I said anything. I just feel alone right now. For the longest time my mom had been manic depressed. She had COPD, emphazema and Alpha-1. She was terminal and very sick and was put on suicide watch on and off in hospital and at home. My dad was arrested and put in jail recently (for good reason) and my mom killed herself the next day. I have a seven y/o little sister and a nineteen year old big sister. I feel really alone since my little sister is in foster care and I'm staying with a friend. I feel like it's my fault, because the reason my dad is in jail is my fault, so her reaction to that is because of me. By the same token I'm mad at her, because she didn't stay for my little sister and because she left me. I just don't know what to do anymore.
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