I broke up with my boyfriend that i truly love because im afraid of hiis epilepsy. I did not want him to feel neglected by me. I wanted to give him all of me and I just couldnt see myself coping. I wish there was a cure for this epilepsy thing. He means the world to me. He is all I ever wanted and needed and thats hard to find. I want to turn right back around again and take him back but I know that im not mature enough yet. I dont know if i should try to stuck it out and make myself get used to it or just leave things the way they are. I feel sooo depressed. I feel like complete scum. He has his seizures in his sleep. ALthough , i have not witnessed these seizures, because he lives in another state, im afraid to sleep next to him in fear that i wake up and he is convulsing. Im not only afraid but I cant see myself looking at him suffering in my mind and my heart cannot take that. I want to be able to help him and take this illness away. What should I do? I have done research everyday since we met and although im learning more and more to cope, I still cant get the nerve to accept it fully. I keep thinking that he might die on me. He hates me right now because he said he was thinking about making me his wife. I want to be his wife and i dont want to be afraid. Help me!!! Please help me to face this thing head on before i lose him forever!
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