Endometriosis Support Group
Endometriosis is a common medical condition where the tissue lining the uterus is found outside of the uterus, typically affecting other organs in the pelvis. The condition can lead to serious health problems, primarily pain and infertility. A major symptom of endometriosis is pain, mostly in the lower abdomen, lower back, and pelvic area.
I am sharig this because I was so surprised my my own reaction.....
I used to have an innie.... it was one thing I actually liked about my body... it had a cute little button in the middle...
after my first lap I was sad a little because of the scars but they were just small so I told myself.... no biggie.... my little button was still there just now it had lost its round button shape... again I told myself its okay.... no biggie...
second lap.... it gets a little uglier....
third lap ... another scar above what is left of my poor little belly button.... half of my button is gone....
4th lap.... healing takes longer this time.... I have little white scars all over my abdomen .... I am afraid this time to keep that wond clean... afraid to touch it... when I look at it its like a black hole.... does it ever end... I can't see my belly button.... I figure it must still be healing.... when it is done healing I will be able to see the end.... see my belly button.... then I can make sure it is clean ...not infected...healing properly... I finally get brave enought to have a good look.... dig around and see what has happened....I can't find it!?!?!? I feel around with my eyes closed... thinking maybe I just can see it... feel for it... no...its not there... look again.... I wonder...the scab that came off a few days earlier!?!?! Was that my belly button!?!?!
it's gone....
I stood there in the bathroom, with my jaw hanging open looking in the mirror.... I am shocked.... I feel empty in the pit of my stomach.... I cry a little.... shocked that I am crying over my belly button....
look again.... maybe I was wrong....it's got to be there.....
NO, its gone.... I got angry!! WTF? those doctors can do heart transplants!?!? why did they take my belly button.!?!? Why didn't they do something different!?!? Couldn't they take 5 min out of their life and sew me back up nicely!?!?
I guess a belly button is not important to them... I wonder why ? I also wonder why it bothered me so much..... My best guess is that it is a control thing.... I have no control over what happens with my body.... but the sense of lose was amazing.... honestly I think I would have felt just as bad if I had lost an arm.... to me it was a very sad moment.... Just one more thing Endo has taken from me...
Any opinions on why this bothered me so much would be helpful... thanks ladies
I used to have an innie.... it was one thing I actually liked about my body... it had a cute little button in the middle...
after my first lap I was sad a little because of the scars but they were just small so I told myself.... no biggie.... my little button was still there just now it had lost its round button shape... again I told myself its okay.... no biggie...
second lap.... it gets a little uglier....
third lap ... another scar above what is left of my poor little belly button.... half of my button is gone....
4th lap.... healing takes longer this time.... I have little white scars all over my abdomen .... I am afraid this time to keep that wond clean... afraid to touch it... when I look at it its like a black hole.... does it ever end... I can't see my belly button.... I figure it must still be healing.... when it is done healing I will be able to see the end.... see my belly button.... then I can make sure it is clean ...not infected...healing properly... I finally get brave enought to have a good look.... dig around and see what has happened....I can't find it!?!?!? I feel around with my eyes closed... thinking maybe I just can see it... feel for it... no...its not there... look again.... I wonder...the scab that came off a few days earlier!?!?! Was that my belly button!?!?!
it's gone....
I stood there in the bathroom, with my jaw hanging open looking in the mirror.... I am shocked.... I feel empty in the pit of my stomach.... I cry a little.... shocked that I am crying over my belly button....
look again.... maybe I was wrong....it's got to be there.....
NO, its gone.... I got angry!! WTF? those doctors can do heart transplants!?!? why did they take my belly button.!?!? Why didn't they do something different!?!? Couldn't they take 5 min out of their life and sew me back up nicely!?!?
I guess a belly button is not important to them... I wonder why ? I also wonder why it bothered me so much..... My best guess is that it is a control thing.... I have no control over what happens with my body.... but the sense of lose was amazing.... honestly I think I would have felt just as bad if I had lost an arm.... to me it was a very sad moment.... Just one more thing Endo has taken from me...
Any opinions on why this bothered me so much would be helpful... thanks ladies
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
You are human and normal.