I'm having such a hard time getting myself to stay positive. It always seems that I'll get energy to fight the disease and then I'll get bad news to slap me back to reality. For example... I found out that there was a more advanced surgery techniques to remove endometriosis so I decided that I would go through surgery a third time and pray it worked. I had that a couple months ago and not only has the pain NOT gone away, but it's gotten worse: during the surgery they found more scar tissue, chronic appendicitis which they removed, cysts on my ovaries, and swollen lymphnodes in my body. A week ago I went for a bone density scan and found out I've lost bone density at age 24! So how do I get excited again about treatment??? I've been on this hopes for so long, but I always get dissapointed. Does anyone else feel this way??
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