Hello everyone. I have been having alot of pain for a while now. The docs have been monitoring a mass on my ovary since November, and they suspect endo to be the culprit. I am having a laparoscopy on April 22nd to get rid of the mass and possibly the endo. So, my problem is that I am feeling kind of alone. I am 22 years old, and in grad school. I am married, and my husband has been very supportive and understanding. But, I feel like my family isnt really being there for me. When I called my mother the other day to tell her I was nervous about the procedure she pretty much said zero back to me. No encouraging words at all. Older brother was the same. I think they are just really horrible at dealing with things like this, but I wish that I could get some support from them. My dad is a little better, but I feel kind of pissed at him too. He is a wealthy guy, and I have told him that this surgery is going to be expensive for me (even with insurance, it will cost around 1200 out of pocket). I dont know, now I guess I feel selfish saying it, but I wish he would offer to help me out. Also, this is the first time I have ever had to deal with a health issue like this on my own, and filling out all of the forms and reading the papers that came in the mail about consent and everything is scary. I want my husband to know and share all of this with me, but I feel like maybe it is selfish to get him worked up about it too. I just feel like no one understands what I am going through, and I feel really alone. I mean, at 22 I should be an adult right, and be able to handle this on my own? I just feel like I have too much going on, the surgery is finals week and then I have qualifier (like comps) for grad school, and whenever I say anything to my parents they are just like... okay. No one asks me if I am okay or scared. Does anyone understand what I am going through? I feel like a whiney baby.
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