I decided it was time for a visit. We went over on Saturday. Went with him on a few errands and took him to the grocery store to fill his fridge. I made some Banana Pudding and put together a bag with little goodies in it. Some silly toys for halloween, some candy, puzzles and my favorite thing.....a coffee mug that says....I Love my Mom. I figured I probably wouldn't see him until Thanksgiving. The good news is that he is doing well. We just really had a nice visit. When it was time to go, I got a nice big long hug. I did OK. I even thought to myself, "your doing good leaving this time". I was good. I thought, "thank god maybe all the emotion is over and I'm used to it." Just to be able to go visit him without feeling like crap would be so nice. So, the trip home, I did fine, that evening came, I did fine, sleep, fine, next morning, fine, all next day, I did fine. Then about 6:00pm Sunday we was on my way to a friends for dinner, then all of a sudden it started, I got that sinking feeling in my chest, I thought "whats going on". Then this feeling of total sadness, finally I broke into tears. My husband pulled the car over ( i think he was terrified) and asked "whats wrong". I was just overwhelmed with missing my son. So I had a good sobbing cry for about 3or 4 minutes, got myself together and went to dinner. What a weinnie. Oh well, I'm getting there. Good luck to us all. Hugs, marge
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