I have just figured out whats up with my depression lately. Since my son left, I've been thinking I need friends, I need a job, I need... I need. I need. The base issue is I need to feel like I have worth instead of feeling worthless. I know everyone will say. "your not worthless", but thats how I feel whether everyone thinks so or not. I have to do something. My mothering was my identity, my being, my life. Whether that was wrong or right thats who I was. I know I'll always be his mom, i know he loves me, I know I did a good job, i know all those things and yet I feel worthless now that he's on his own. Going to a pottery class or learning photography will not solve that. I have to do something that counts. I just don't know what that is yet. I guess I'm having a bad day today. He came home this weekend for a Halloween Party and now he's gone again. You have all been so helpful and understanding and I appreciate that more than I can express, so if anyone has any suggestions I'd love to hear them. thanks, Marge
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