First of all, I am not a drinker, but tonight I've drinking. After this, I'm going to bed. I had a strange sensation tonight that appears to be overwhelming to me. Saturday, my husband, myself and his parents and his cousin had a day trip planned. I was looking forward to it. Anyway, during a spirited discussion my husband said something friday evening very hurtful to me and I was very upset. There are certain phrases that are taboo in our household. He didn't apologize, so I decided I better stay home from the day out, I couldn't pretend to have a nice time in front of his parents, when I felt like kicking him in the a.......By the time he got home, I was getting ready for bed, still no apology, He went to work Sunday morning, nothing, we were supposded to go to a friends house for dinner Sunday night. I was getting madder by the minute when I figured out that he decided not to apologize still, so I declined dinner, he went without me. I thought he would have apologized. NO. Anyway, blah, blah blah..... Now he's at dinner and I'm drinking at home. I'm probably giving to much info. but I just realized my issue. The young man who took my side is gone. The young man who would tell his Dad, "you went to far dad, say your sorry" is gone. I would tell my husband the sames things, but when his son said them he listened. My husband and I don't argue much we're usually pretty good communicaters but they seems to come around every few months. This is the first time since my sons been gone. I feel horrible x2. I have to sleep. Sorry I'm whining to you but everyone else has left. Bedtime.
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