I have 2 daughters. One is responsible, lives on her own, she's 19, pays for her own bills, pays for college and is healthy. Then I have another one who is 18 with Bipolar I, ODD, ADHD, who has been in and out of jail since she was 17. Now she is living with some guy, I dont know him, he is a felon, she has no drivers license, no car, no job, etc. I am scared for her. She left and I hadn't heard from her for 3 weeks, now all of a sudden, she is calling wanting me to take her to her probation officer in another town. This is causing me great grief and anxiety. When my daughter left my house, she had the police escort her and made it perfectly clear that she did not want to be here. Then no contact for 3 weeks. That was the hardest part. So I checked myself into a partial hospitalization program for behavioral health to try to get some help. I feel all they did was overmedicate me, which I am slowly trying to come off of on my own. But now that she is back in contact with me, its almost like we are going into the victim-persecutor-rescuer triangle again. And I know that nothing I will do for her will ever be enough. I am just stressed and sad about this. I am also nervous to go back to work after having 3 weeks off. I am worried that I didn't do a good enough job parenting her and that I didn't give her the skills she needs to be a productive member of society..Is this normal for a parent to worry about? Is it normal to have a hard time letting go of a child that you have held onto so close for 18 years? I am just feeling down, down, down today. thanks for listening.
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