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work, dreams and giving up

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Hi Everyone,

I signed onto daily strength in Nov. of 08 and haven't signed on since then. I need some support and I miss giving it.

I feel my eating disorder slipping away from me. I'm making a lot of progress in therapy and I'm scared of leaving my eating disorder behind. Last night, I was so upset because my boss called and wanted me to work an extra 6 hours. I didn't want to leave my co-worker in the lurch so I agreed, but I had been looking forward to leaving and resented my boss for even asking me to.

I ended up eating lots of Wheat Thins and felt bloated and disgusting. I had been putting off my ED all day and I even thought to myself "I am never going to sort out my issues if I keep avoiding them by using my eating disorder. I have to cope with my inner pain in a productive way in order to get better."

I ended up giving up. I didn't try hard enough. I felt so ashamed of myself as I lay in bed last night. I also had a terrible dream about binging and purging. Do any of you have dreams about binging and purging and want to share? Has anyone had a psychiatrist tell them what their eating disorder dreams mean?

I'm exhausted today from abusing myself last night and I can't wait to leave work. I want to feel excited to live every moment of my day and not resentful towards work.
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ed doesn't want to be left behind; it means YOU not it are in control. You're making progress and every body has set backs. We have to accept them and move on.
What ways has your therapist suggested you use to manage your ed 'in a more productive way?' Or more importantly what do you want to do to manage your ed in a more productive way?

I know I dream about things I'm worried about losing control of.

I can relate to what you're saying about wanting to live every moment of the day. What are your plans so you can do that? Feeling resentful towards work can only bring negativity - Does work help you or ed? Personally I use work as an escape (which is why I'm finding thimgs hard atm) but if work for you adds complications to your life then you have to look for any kind of small resoloution you can make.
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you sound like you are moving forward, so dont let the set back ruin your recovery !!!!!

you had a bad night, try your hardest to figure out what it was that set you off.... keep working at it...
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