I'm still in my normal weight range at the moment but have lost a lot of weight over the past few months starving myself. I am obsessed with food and weighing myself, I just can't stop thoughts spinning around my head. I have been here before but this time it is different because I was made to realise what I'm doing isn't 'normal' and I've got to the point where I realise I'm not in control any more I thought I could stop when I wanted. I'm also depressed and have a lot of stress at work at the moment - food being my control. I have booked an appointment with a therapist - not through a doctor because that seems too scary. Some days I just want to carry on and give in and be thin. Other days I realise that this is beginning to really affect my life and I want it to stop. I live alone and it is so easy to eat or not eat. Will they take me seriously because I'm still a healthy weight? Sometimes I feel a failure because I can't even get thin enough to get better.
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