I have struggled with my ED now for 3 years. At the moment I'm going along sort of okay. I'm at a point where I'm not starving myself but I think about my weight ever second of every day. Am I too fat? Am I eating too much? Will everyone look at me and think I'm ugly and gross? Will my boyfriend get sick of me? There are a million questions that go through my head every day. Today I've only weighed myself once, but I can't stop thinking about that number! I am just starting to wonder if I will ever be free of this. It's gotten to the point where I have thought if my boyfriend dumps me, I will just lose all the weight I put back on when I was at my worst. When I was so skinny that my best friend said I looked terrible. I can't believe I'm thinking this. I love my boyfriend so so much, but it's been in my head lately and I've started to imagine myself going backwards. I'm scared of it so much and I don't want it to happen, don't know how to stop thinking it
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