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Why why?!

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So I have been out of the hospital for about 1 1/2 weeks now and I have been doing great: vitals are good, I'm happier, very little guilt about eating and calories didn't scare me at all. For the first whole week I was on a roll. But now it seems to be gradually coming back.

For the past few days I've been having more and more ED-related thoughts, stronger thoughts, like I used to. I'm having more instances where I have fat attacks, want to skip meals, start restricting again, run and exercise and burn calories, the whole nine yards. Luckily I have been able to control and ignore them, but I'm finding they're bothering me more frequently and they are stronger again.The doctor accidentally let slip my weight today, which is higher than I'd expected. I don't want to fall back again... but why are these thoughts returning, and why are they still a nuisance to me? I should be getting better, right?!
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Sounds like you need to talk a lot! I have heard your mind is always the last to cooperate with recovery. Do you see a therapist? After you got out of the hospital did they have a partial program you could go to for extra supports? I know this is hard but you have to fight all the negative ED thoughts with the positive good stuff, like you do feel great and your recovery is important to you. Good luck.
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They did offer a partial program but we just couldn't keep up with it, it's too far for us. So I am going to outpatient 2x a week in a separate place, which I feel is really helpful. It's mainly the days that I don't go there that the thoughts really kick in.

I'm trying my very best... I know I will do it. It's just a tad harder at the moment.
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Do you have an OA group close to you? Maybe you could start a group. (me and a friend did) Well at least we're here to listen. Your friend, tigpie
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Hiya, well first of all well done for getting as far as you have. I think when you have an eating disorder, the thoughts associated with food become so natural that when you go back to trying to eat normal there are bound to be a lot of ups and downs, it doesn't mean you aren't getting better. If you persevere with it and don't let slip ups put you off,don't give yourself a hard time it's like retraining your brain, which takes time. So it is natural to feel how you are feeling. Take care of yourself and feel free to message me if you need to talk. Holly x
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It's great that you did so well in the hospital and your first week out, especially since the hospital stay was extremely short.
Your thoughts are completely normal but don't let them win. Scream at ED that you won't listen to him after all the success you had. On the days when you don't have your meetings call some of the people in your group. I'm sure they are all going through the same thing.
Stay strong. You can do it.
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I'm only 3 weeks out of inpatient and Ed is chirping away in the background. I journal a lot and I pray a lot and that helps me to eat a lot.
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continue to use all your tools make your peer phone calls journal go to as many support group as you can even AA groups read and practice the twelve steps I am in a program right now if you cant tell. Hang in there you made it this far.
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