im always asking myself things over and over again and to be honest i dont think there is an answer, ive had it for 7 years now and cant still think of an answer, i hope one day il find the answer.xx

i have to say, i think its f*#cked. and I dont understand what we have done wrong to deserve any kind of life like this. obviously we still have a roof over our heads and food to eat (only just) but, sometimes that isnt anywhere near everything and/or enough..

i don't know hon. i have dealt w/ this for 10 yrs and sometimes i do well and others crappy. right now it is crappy.

No one can help you because either you can't accept it or you don't want help. i'm going through anorexia and I don't want to tell anyone because i only have a few pounds to go before I'm where i want to be. of course, after that, i could be so messed up that I don't stop; but hopefully by then someone will have noticed. Why does everyone keep saying you have to be underweight to be anorexic? I'm not, but I have almost all of the symptoms and I'm losing a pound and a half a day.

You don't have to be underweight to be anorexic, I'm not either. And I'm 10 lbs. away from my goal. But what keeps back tracking me is my binging and purging. Back to the topic... I don't get it either. One thing that my therapist asked me that maybe you can as yourself is"is this helping me lose weight? is this really helping you at all?"

maybe there is no one that can help us, cant help anyone who doesnt want the help to begin with, hell i am 10-15 away from where i wanna be, but thats beside the point. Most ppl dont care anyone, so why should they help.

God, on my worst days when i could see no end but know that Bulimia was killing me slowly, with no light at the end of the tunnel. I prayed for hope though i believed in no cure. And here i am recovered high off of life. he will answer, just ask.

It's crap isn't it... have you checked out any eating disorder clinics if there's one in your area??? I have to start going in a couple of weeks... we're supposed to discuse our "issues" in a group setting to get to the root of our problem... the bulimia (for me at least)is masking the really problems and I use it as a stress relief to make myself feel more in control (which I'm not at all)...you might have already gone this root, but if not it might be worth checking into...

because we have to help ourselves first

im not sure why we are treated the way we are. there is a stigma to eds, esspecially bulimia, because it is not a pretty word, and what people associate with it is not pretty either. we all know this, but we cant stop any more than a smoker can just stop smoking. 2 of my roommates just found out about my purging, and their reactions: one said "if you dont stop ill drag someone in here to make you stop." thats encouraging. if only it were that easy. i cant stop. it doesnt work that way. i kept it from them for so long because i knew they wouldnt react in the way i needed them to and i was right. im just sorry they know now. the sad thing is that i know my other roommate will not do anything. she wont tell anyone. she wont say anything to me about it, as if she never found out. i think thats the worst part.