I've been b/p for 8 years and you CAN NOT beat it on your own... I'm sorry to tell you that, but it's the truth. I'm one of the strongest , hardworking, clear-headed, and determined people I know.. And it's an impossible battle to win on your own... Trust me... I've tried for 8 years.... And it's only NOW starting to change b/c I told my bf and my mom... If you are really serious about getting better and stopping, you HAVE to tell someone who will help and support you. Like a best friend, boyfriend, or family mamber. And THAT is NOT an easy thing to do... It's humiliating, and embarassing but it's also the MOST IMPORTANT step to recovering.. If you REALLY want to stop someone needs to know. period. Because when someone knows ...you HAVE to change your behavior. Right now there is NO ONE to stop you.. and you will continue the pattern, because emotionally YOU CAN NOT STOP YOURSELF, it's all chemical and you're fighting against something that is bigger then your will. You need to explain to them how this is an emotional crutch for you, and how you use food to cope with your saddness, anger, and stress.

You would be an overweight person, and it would be more obvious to anyone, how unhappy you were, cause they would be able to "see" it . But WE ALL (unfortunately) have figured out this "magical way" to still be skinny, by abusing food in a way that no one would be able to tell how much we're suffering inside. Please tell someone you trust and will be able to keep your problem just between you two. You need someone watching you and looking for you to abuse food, so they can stop you, and you will also stop doing it so much because you CAN'T anymore, and that is what you need to help you stop this horrible cycle.. You NEED someone there to KEEP you from doing it. Whether it's going to eat with them, ordering food and lookng at it , discussing (with that person) what's it's doing to you (emotionally) to have this food infront of you, how you are feeling.. sadness..stress.. whatever...and WHY you want to over-eat , and WHY that would make you FEEL better...and please cry if you can,cause that is what you're body NEEDS and WANTS to do...not b/p. It's super dificult and scary to put it out in the world and REALLY face it but, Trust me it's the BEST thing you could possibly do for yourself right now.. please feel free to mess. me if you wanna talk :)

I can't bring myself to tell those i love either. I feel as though my mum will shout at me or be angry at me when she finds out about my eating and that i spend al my spare money on food. I'm 13 so i don't have any friends to go to and my doctors are too intimidating.