
Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.

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I am so pissed off with myself this week. Why can't I see a true reflection of myself in the mirror? All I see is ED...I know that is what I am seeing and yet....that is all I see. How is this possible to tell yourself something and yet see something else? I'm not sure why it is bothering me so much this week, but it is! I talked to my husband about it last night and i think he was just baffled about what to say, the poor guy....but he did give me some nice hugs. Anyone else feel the same?

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You're right about one thing, it is the ED. And knowing that is a huge step. Be patient with yourself girl, the image in the mirror will change. You will see yourself eventually. Keep talking and asking for help. You've made a huge leap in recognizing that the ED affects how you see yourself. Have faith and patience. It will happen.

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I don't look in the mirror anymore, especially when I'm having a "fat" day. Just get dressed and get a quick glance that you won't have any wardrobe malfunctions and then leave.

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I had this same problem, and still struggle with it on ocassion. I find that when I look in the mirror intentionally I see fat (ed), when I look at myself unintentionally in the mirror I see me. (Myself). Now dont get me wrong. This is very hard to do, I have only done it like twice, but if I can do it, anyone can! I hope you can see yourself real soon because you sound so beautiful and so amazing and you deserve to see that! I hope this helps!

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Yeah I definately know how you feel but it has to do with the mirror and the scale. Even when I've lost ten pounds the mirror still shows ED. I even thought the scale was wrong when I had lost ten pounds that I went out and bought another one, and the weight was even lower than on the previous scale. I don't know I think we all see ED and thats why its so hard to recover, when we really want to see something else ourselves.

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Its easier to see ED than the pain of the feelings. I use to have so many intense feelings. I just started naming/writing them down, and talking to safe people about them. Eventually I drained them all out of myself.

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Have you ever looked in a three way mirror and wondered, "Who IS that person?" The three way is one that looks at a different angle. You look over the dismorphic depiction of your mind's eye and see what is real. It is weird. Mirrors lie all the time. My husband could say all the encouraging words and it doesn't change what is within. Keep trying to look past what your brain tells you. Feel good about you.
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