I have a problem and I'm not exactly sure what to do. I've been telling my Therapist that I hardly ever make myself throw up anymore, that Bulimia just isn't really my thing any longer. Well, he mentioned that he saw me at Taco Bell with my family last Tuesday and now I'm fuckin screwed. It's pretty damn obvious that if you see me at a fast food place, what I'm going to do afterwards. When I eat out, I don't keep the food down; I can't keep the food down! So, now he knows I made myself puke. Battling with Bulimia is the most embarrassing thing anybody could go through, in my opinion and I didn't want him to know that I still do that; but now it's all fuckin ruined....because duh, he saw me at Taco Bell; doesn't take a brain scientist to figure out what I did after I ate! It's so embarrassing! Does anyone else feel as embarrassed about being Bulimic, as I do? I'm more ashamed being this way, then being a cutter. I don't care if people see my scars, unless I'm trying to hide it from my Therapist; but other than that it doesn't bother me. But being Bulimic is humiliating!!
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