Does anyone else ever feel the compulsive need to look at pictures of yourself? either when you weighed less, or more? I was anorexic last summer, and I can't stop looking at pictures of myself from then till now to track the process of my weight gain to what is now a normal weight for me, although I feel huge. I can't even tell if i look any different, but it becomes this overwhelming obsession. When I see a photo of myself when i was restricting it literally hurts my heart, I want to look like that so badly again. I wish mirrors and cameras didn't exist sometimes! but i know id go even more crazy without the mirror.
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