Lately I have been starting to really think about my eating disorder again. It's been years since I have had a issue with just not eating anymore. I guess I feel the urge to deal with everything by not wanting to eat. I don't know if it is the Holiday season and this being the hardest year of my life, or well I am guessing that is it. I thnk peolple excpect a lot of me. It's hard to keep going and I don't want to eat anything. I am eating, but I binge every time something really bad happens. My dad was in a car accident and I ate a entire freakin' pizza and breadsticks that night. I don't know what to do I just want to lay in bed and not ever get up again. Guess I just wanted to put the thoughts in my head out there, maybe someone will listen.
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