I've never purged before but tonight I can't stop thinking about wanting to. I celebrated Mother's Day and my birthday with my husband and kids. They made me dinner and cake. I tried to eat only my normal amount, which isn't much, but they were watching and served me more than I could handle. I felt very pressured to eat. I don't like to argue about food with the kids so I ate as much as I could. Now I feel horrible and just want to throw up. I think not eating and dealing with the kids' confusion and disappointment might have been easier than dealing with what's going on in my head and stomach. How do you resist the urge to vomit? I keep telling myself that it isn't a habit I want to start. But I think it might not hurt to do it just this once. Any comments would be really appreciated. Thanks.
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